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God Dammmnit!

I am so aggrivated right now.

I woke with a migraine invading my frontal lobe just above my right eye. OUCH.

Then I got a call from one of my sisters about this problem person only associated to our house because of a new cousin in the family. The problem person is nothing but a huge train wreck who has used everyone she's ever touched. The cousin is someone I am VERY close to lately, but if she can't get the psycho out of her life then I am not sure how close I want to be...

I work too damn hard to get rid of the bad people...just like I did with Paul - swipe! you are outta here! [People come and people go; nothing lasts forever]...WHY ARE MY FRIENDS SO FORGIVING? Don't the know burns hurt? [oh maybe they've never through a house fire.]

Yet I watch this cousin and two siblings get wrapped in this crap because that cousin brought this mess from her last relationship. She walked away from the asshole dominant, but is still dealing with those he brought into her world who are destructive...

My cousin has gone out of her way to help this problem person. She has imposed on friends to take the wretch in. She's had them lend a couch and take on the bitch's pets. She's gone beyond what is required and it doesn't benefit her in ANY WAY. So I told her to quit it.

First it is unfair that one of the siblings got so attached to the problem person that occassionally she buys problem person groceries and such. She's struggling to feed herself and her unwell son that she is caring for!! Eventhough when the pscyho bitch lived under her roof, the cops had to be called to remove her dumbass. [At that moment I would have never spoken to her ever again because if I have to call the cops you are just a waste of air.]

Secondly the other sibling who helped by taking in the problem person's cats did so without even knowing the problem person. She just happens to hate any animal being neglected. She also loves the cousin enough to do anything to help when asked. Now thanks to cousin giving problem person this sibling's phone number, without asking her first, she had to deal with psychobitch calling at 8 am threating her the day after her life mate of 15 years died of lung cancer.

Finally, this puts me out. I have to confront the problem person and tell her to stop. She knows me and she knows I would backhand her fucking mouth before I would let her say one more stupid selfish comment. I feel nothing but disgust for her, whereas when we were first introduced I just felt sorry for her as she was raised to be a throw away child. Yet purely by family association, I have had her in life via proxy for well over a year...NOT ANYMORE...

If my cousin can't get this bad seed out of her life, ultimately it will cause the cousin to be in my life less. I will not continue to condone helping this psycho. My sibling who took her in already knows to discuss this person with me only means I will remind her what a stupid idea it is to try to help her. I am a heartless bitch when it is needed and in this case it is...

Do I worry that having to put up severe boundaries will hinder my endearment to the cousin? Hell yes.

Do I like living like this? No, I wish everyone acted like all the snakes but that is not the case.

This is called self-preservation...For too long I tried to help people who refused to help themselves...I am sick of it...Why can't those I love learn to avoid it too?

I just want to scream I DON'T LET PEOPLE TAKE ADVANTAGE OF AND/OR USE ME BECAUSE I AM AN UNFORGIVING BITCH WHO GUARDS HER LIFE, PRIVACY AND FAMILY WITH THE ENERGY FORCE OF A LIONNESS PROTECTING HER CUBS!! WHY CAN'T YOU DO THE SAME AND TAKE THIS TRASH OUT?

Okay. Done venting. Going to take something for the pain in my head...hopefully it'll all work out with this royal pain in my ass...

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