Things on my mind this hump day

Things that are fucking with my head right now
A. I have to finish the database of the web listings for Triple W. I have to remember what all the passwords are for the stupid things first. Then I have to post the current information on the profiles, blogs and any appropriate groups I might have signed us up for -- and join them if I didn't -- before adding them to the database. I spent all day yesterday doing this and am pretty sick of it. I am glad I did this BEFORE I took my webnetics business too seriously. [I still have too many details to work out to decide what I am willing to offer.]

B. This whole economic nightmare. Will is obsessing with watching news channels right now and the stock market. Not that we have anything to lose, but it fascinates the shit out of him. I prefer to get my news from John Stewart and MY DREAM MAN - Steven Colbert. Hearing about the issues being the average person losing their homes because of rates adjusting beyond their means just mentally spins me back to the end of the marriage to ex-hub number 2, The Big Snake. I already went through all this and am still struggling to come back from it. I was trying to push it all out of my mind, but damn if the whole world isn't in crisis over it too. At least now maybe more people will understand just how fucked I have been for a while now.

C. Will told me about the teacher who got fired for using the acronymn for change [O's big campain thing] being Come Help A Nigga Get Elected. We have played with all the different tones that could be applied with the phrase...Good Ole Boys would say it all negative with a rope image in the face and hands...Black Power people would put a fist up in the air and say it with an empowerment by usage of a word white people should NEVER use....Because of this, I just can't get it out of my head...Now every fucking time I see those signs I can't stop giggling.

[PLEASE REMEMBER THAT I LIVE IN AN APARTMENT IN A SUBCULTURE DIVERSIFIED BY RACE RATHER THEN ECONOMIC STATURE AND FOR THE FIRST TIME I'M LIVING AROUND AN ETHNIC CULTURE WHICH EXPLEMPIFIES ALL THE BAD RACIAL STEREOTYPES - AFTER BEING RAISED VERY LIBERAL AND NON-BIASED.]

D. What the hell is going on with ex-hub 1's health. Motherfucker took a turn for the better now. He's coherant and squeezing hands/blinking eyes in response to family members! I can't figure out what is going to happen here. The kids are down there today with my former mother in law. They are staying later then normal because his doctor wants to meet with them. HOW am I 'posed to figure out how to approach this child support/social-security disablity/welfare problem until I have some fucking idea of if the dumbass is going to live or not?!?!

E. Willbur's old roomie -- and someone I love so much -- is actually choosing to move to Vegas. Will had hoped he could convince him to move down here to be roomies. He realizes this changes his plans and is kinda bummed. Selfishly, I am secretly calmed a little by this. At least it buys me a little more time.

F. My mom is driving me crazy too much. She was here every day this week. Annoying. But she paid for my car's insurance for the next six months and got it registered in my name now. Damn I should have told her to keep it in theirs so that if I do have to go on welfare they won't hold it against me. Damn. I wish I had thought of that earlier!!!

Ok. I have to focus now. I must get the Triple W stuff completely finished today. The sooner I get that off my plate the sooner I can move on to decorating the new room at the house.

M