Chasing Down Lost Friends

"Been Chasing Down Lost Friends"

Wow. Such amazing facts are coming to light. Finding out that things were said to have my support when in fact they were questioned by me from their INCEPTION.

Went back and tracked down one of my favorite Pussies. I explained the TRUTH to her and got her perspective. Seems SOMEONE had her convinced I had turned on her. What a lying cunt! I am not the one who gave her that treatment. I never supported the other's choice in resolution and yet this friend that I lost told me she was informed of the exact opposite.

TO THE PERSON WHO RUINED MY FRIENDSHIP DUE TO YOUR POOR CHOICES WHICH WERE BASED IN LUST, GREED AND MANIPULATION -- YOU FUCKING SUCK.

But I got the last laugh. Since this person didn't check with me first, I got to make a quick amends. I have a feeling as I go to the people who have pulled away from me whom I know didn't like that person but loved me, I am going hear even more of this bullshit. AFTERALL this lying manipulator was in my life for about five years...

Seems like it's the season for me to find out the truths about this situation AND my last marriage. Oh fucking joy. Luckily for me I am repairing my foundation by just being an honest communicator who took the time to build the friendships from the ground up with hard time and transparency. Unlike the TWO ASSHOLES that both assisted me during those years we were all associated -- my last hubby and this newly former friend.

Great news is that I am painting a mural right now while redoing a kitchen. It is coming out so beautifully and seems to be making my 'client' happy. The mural is happy and light, so it's hard to be filled with too much resentment.

Now how I will feel when I am at TRF -- a place we all shared years together -- is going to be easy. I have gone with the 'invisable to me' choice. Should I run into either of them I will just look right through them as if they weren't there. I will not look away or avoid, but I also will NOT even recognize any vocalizations they may make into my direction. Deaf ears are the most insulting thing to people who really want me to blow up...

Sorry bitches, but I don't blow up like that anymore. I save it up to bring out when policing our parking lot like Batfuckingman!!

Laughing through the pain of realization~
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