Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Things are chaning

And hopefully it is for the better....We will see...Patience...temperance...timing...Going to have to wait it out and see...

Will and Paul are looking for Ricki so they can rediscuss a three bedroom together. The boys went and looked at 2 and 3 bedrooms here in the complex today. Honestly, I am so ready for them to give me some space that I am being totally supportive...

But I don't think Will realizes how much his life is really going to change...no more using my car...no more waking up and going to bed together...meals by invite only...and surprisingly, me finding other ways to spend my time rather then just hanging out here with him...Afterall, I won't have 2 fucking boys to add to my costs!!

No more free ride...even if we aren't breaking up...from now he can feel what it is like to struggle again...I think he's forgotten...I will bet he's back living here in six months or less.

oh and if you all think this isn't breaking my damn heart, well, then you don't fucking know me at all...

M [still wondering if I should just turn into a wild horse and run with the wind to protect myself from what will eventually break me...]

Currently listening:Wild HorsesBy The Rolling StonesRelease

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